If you are like me, you wear many, many hats. In my case I am an actor, first and foremost. However I co-owned, ran and grew one of the earlier digital magazines back in 2009 to 2011. I also have been doing radio since about 2010, I have been and still freelance as a media correspondent. I write, I produce, I have directed...lol I am basically a true 'Jill of All Trades.' BUT I had to figure out that just because I've grown to be very good at all of these things, does not mean I'm supposed to be doing all of them. Or that my destiny is to do them all for the duration of my career.
Many times as creatives we find ourselves in a situation where survival and progress compels us to take up a plethora of torches. And we may enjoy these myriad of tasks we take on...or not. But either way, we do the job. And for me, I give anything I touch 150% or nothing at all most times. So I go in and I go hard. However, in doing all that, you also must be cognizant of when it's time to pack it in and go home. Wearing yourself out doing what you're good at versus what you're purposed to do can and usually will stagnate you if you don't recognize when to let go.
Prime example; prior to being a full time creative, my day job was in finance. I was always told that I was a great Executive Assistant and Assistant Analyst in that time. But doing that did not allow me to fully pursue my goals in entertainment and media. I had to realize just because I excelled in that space, didn't mean I was to permanently exist in it. I needed to generate the skill sets the job provided me - professionalism, business sense, organization, logistics, etc.- then use them in my own business. So, when I could and my spirit told me to, I quit corporate life. Many thought I was nuts. My boss was sorry to see me go. But she understood my heart was in entertainment and media so she wished me well.
After leaving my corporate life behind I fell into production as a PA or production assistant. Now I was luckier than most. I was working with what's called First Team, right under the Director and Assistant Directors. I worked hands on with the celebrity talent. I got to show my ability to trouble shoot, to deescalate abrasive talent, to delegate when needed, to play background while simultaneously being foreground on set, whatever I could do to help get things moving. This lead to many other requests to either run first teams or be the personal PA specifically assigned to said celeb talent. Now it's been rough, but I've been blessed with great relationships and connections. However, just because I excel in being a caretaker and hole filler on set as and PA doesn't mean that I need to do this for the rest of my life. I am an actor first...so I have to do what I have to do to be IN the movies and TV shows, not ON them. It's hard to tell people no, but if I don't when will I get to - as my good friend and fellow actor, Mel Roberson said - stop watching the playground from the window, and get out there to play for myself? The answer is, I won't!
At this point, when I wrap this present film, I will likely turn down anymore production gigs below the line (meaning anything less than an AD or Producer or UPM). I have experience doing these things but not at studio film or multi-million dollar film levels, so likely those offers won't come anyway. Lol. But that's okay as I want to focus on completing my Producer Certificate at NYU this fall (one class left...Woot woot!!!). I also want to continue auditioning for great roles (large and small), find new representation and finally engage my union status at some point between now and the first quarter of 2016.
I realize that my purpose will only make room for me if I allow it to. But how can it if I'm doing things outside of it?!
Assess your present situation family. Are you fulfilling your dreams and purpose? Are you doing that which will get you there? I'm not saying don't do the things that will align you with it, or teach you the skills to achieve it. I'm just saying don't get stuck. Go and grow family, go and grow!!!!